Arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 bana benzeyen insanlardan m\u0131 se\u00e7mem gerekiyor yoksa bana hi\u00e7 benzemeyen insanlardan m\u0131, hala karar veremiyorum.
\u0130zledi\u011fim filmin g\u00fczel olabilmesi i\u00e7in filmden bir karakterler muhakkak kendimi \u00f6zde\u015fle\u015ftirmem gerekiyor. Okudu\u011fum bir roman\u0131n g\u00fczel olabilmesi i\u00e7in kahramanlardan bir tanesinde kendimi g\u00f6rmem gerekiyor. Bir \u015fiir g\u00fczelse, benim hikayemden nemalanm\u0131\u015f demektir \u015fair. Bir resim g\u00fczelse, benim bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 resmetmi\u015f demektir ressam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Arkada\u015flar\u0131m konusunda ise bu keskin \u00e7izgi birden kayboluyor. Neden bilmiyorum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201cG\u00fczelli\u011fini G\u00f6rd\u00fck\u00e7e A\u011flayas\u0131m Geliyor\u201d<\/em> c\u00fcmlesi tam benim kuraca\u011f\u0131m bir c\u00fcmle demi\u015ftim ilk okudu\u011fumda. \u0130nternette bu kitab\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fckten birka\u00e7 saat sonras\u0131nda kitap\u00e7\u0131 ko\u015ftum. Kendimi aynalardan ziyade insanlarda g\u00f6rmeyi seven bir adam olarak benim c\u00fcmlelerimle yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u00f6yk\u00fcler okuma umuduydu beni yerimden kald\u0131r\u0131p, kitap\u00e7\u0131ya g\u00f6t\u00fcren.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Pi\u015fman da olmad\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Baz\u0131 hikayeler \u00e7ok s\u0131radand\u0131. Hayat da bazen \u00e7ok s\u0131radand\u0131r, bunu biliyorum. Baz\u0131 replikler \u00e7ok basitti, bakkaldan ekmek al\u0131rken \u015fiir s\u00f6ylemiyorum ben de nas\u0131lsa. Baz\u0131 sevgiler s\u0131cakt\u0131, baz\u0131 \u00f6fkeler kat\u0131yd\u0131. Baz\u0131 jilet yaralar\u0131 derindi. A\u015fklarsa serin bir yaz gecesiydi. 8 tane \u00f6yk\u00fc okudum. Sekizi de hayat\u0131n i\u00e7indendi. Uzun soluklu bir roman\u0131n yeniden in\u015fa etti\u011fi bir d\u00fcnyaya girmektense b\u00f6yle kendi hayat\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7ine konuk oluyormu\u015f hissi uyand\u0131ran \u00f6yk\u00fcler okumay\u0131 daha \u00e7ok seviyorum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Furkan\u2019\u0131n babas\u0131na \u00f6fkesi, kolundaki derin yaralar\u0131 okuduk\u00e7a bazen kendi kollar\u0131ma bakt\u0131m.
<\/strong>Nisa\u2019n\u0131n arada 500 km olan bir a\u015fka inanma iste\u011fini g\u00f6r\u00fcnce kendi kalbime bakt\u0131m.
Dergide yaz\u0131lar\u0131 yay\u0131nlanmaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda acaba insanlar beni tan\u0131yacak m\u0131 tela\u015f\u0131na kap\u0131lan genci g\u00f6r\u00fcnce kendi heyecan\u0131ma bakt\u0131m.
<\/strong>\u201cBen senin k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 seviyorumi k\u00f6t\u00fc bir \u015fey mi yap\u0131yorum\u201d diyen Supi\u2019yi g\u00f6r\u00fcnce kendi g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131ma bakt\u0131m.
Ye\u015filin ve mavinin h\u00fck\u00fcmranl\u0131\u011f\u0131 r\u00fczgara b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 o beldeyi g\u00f6r\u00fcnce kendi hayallerime bakt\u0131m.
<\/strong>Kalemi kaybettim. \u0130ki g\u00fcnd\u00fcr bulam\u0131yorum. Tekrar kalemli\u011fe bakt\u0131m.
Kemal\u2019in H\u00fclya\u2019ya bak\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce, g\u00f6zlerimi s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 kapatt\u0131m.
\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc benim de bir g\u00fczeli g\u00f6r\u00fcnce, a\u011flayas\u0131m<\/mark> geliyor.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sonras\u0131 serin bir yaz ak\u015fam\u0131n\u0131n tatl\u0131 serinli\u011fi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/p>\n\n\n\n

H\u00fcsameddin Bayrakl\u0131<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

08.08.2023\/\u0130stanbul<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc benim de bir g\u00fczeli g\u00f6r\u00fcnce, a\u011flayas\u0131m geliyor.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":2441,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"inline_featured_image":false,"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[55],"tags":[76,78,77],"class_list":["post-2436","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-yazi","tag-ethem-baran","tag-kitap","tag-oyku"],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/husameddinbayrakli.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2436","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/husameddinbayrakli.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/husameddinbayrakli.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/husameddinbayrakli.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/husameddinbayrakli.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2436"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/husameddinbayrakli.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2436\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2438,"href":"http:\/\/husameddinbayrakli.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2436\/revisions\/2438"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/husameddinbayrakli.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/2441"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/husameddinbayrakli.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2436"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/husameddinbayrakli.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2436"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/husameddinbayrakli.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2436"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}